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Torn InsideOh, this is stupid. Well, I couldn't think of anything better. Maybe I'll look back on this one day and laugh. That is, if I ever remember how to. I haven't laughed in a long time. Not since my mother died. I was about six or so; I don't remember too much of it. Probably my way of "coping" or some bull shit like that. Ever since then, my father's been drinking a lot and blaming me for her death. He says that since I couldn't have just walked home from my elementary school at like ten at night in the middle of winter, and Mom had to come get me, that it's my fault.
I know Mom doesn't blame me, though. I should know. I was there when she died. She told me herself that she came to get me because she loved me and didn't want me to get hurt. She was just being a good mother and protecting her son. She loved me. That's all I needed to know. As long as I never forgot that, I could take anything my father threw at me. Literally.
"Hey, boy, get your ass up! I am not dragging you to sch
Torn Inside 5The end of the year was drawing nearer and nearer but summer vacation was the last thing on my mind. During the last week of school I only had to come in to take my finals then I could go home. I was really happy about that. Ever since Axel broke up with me, I've been avoiding him like the plague. I was dreading the day I had to take an exam with him.
Ever since then, all I've wanted to do was sleep. I was always so tired. Cloud was worried, of course, but there wasn't much he could do; considering the fact I banned him from tearing Axel limb from limb. It pissed him off, but he was in no position to argue. I just needed him to be there for me and that was enough.
I didn't talk much and I was hardly ever awake. I didn't have the energy to do anything. I was surprised I was awake enough to even take my tests. But they were easy, so I know I passed. But I didn't even have it in me to go to Vincent and Sephiroth's graduation, even though I promised. I didn't want my problems spoiling thei
Torn Inside 4Axel and I have been dating for five days, but I feel as if it's been forever. I swear, he's the best boyfriend I could ever ask for. I just wish I could spend more time with him outside of school. Well, he's busy and his mom doesn't really let him out much. I invited him to come with me to visit my mom and he'd see if he could. I really hoped he could. Mom would be happy that I found someone like Axel.
I had gotten into the after school routine of coming home, doing a little bit of homework, then hanging out and catching up on my reading. But today, I was lying in my bed, lightly running my fingers over the scars on my wrist as music blared in my ears. "Open Wounds" by Skillet was currently on. God, they were the band of my life.
Damn Shuffle, always seeming to know exactly which song to put on. One question still burned in the back of my mind: Why did I cut? I searched my memories over and over again for any possible reason, but it just wasn't there. Nothing. I looked o
Torn Inside 3The ride to Cloud's house was quiet. Cloud had already told his parents about my situation and now I was scared. You know that look people give you when something bad happens, like your dog dies or something? The one filled with pure pity that just makes things seem worse? Yeah, that one. I was scared Cloud's parents were going to give me that look. I trusted Cloud and his family but if they gave me that look I didn't know what I'd do
To my great relief, they didn't give me the look. They just asked me what I wanted for dinner, reminded me to take my pain medication, and told me I'd be staying in the guest bedroom. They acted almost completely normal and I was oh so very grateful for that. Cloud led me upstairs to the room, reminding me that he was next door if I needed anything. He also said he stopped by my house and grabbed some stuff to hold me over until we knew for certain where I would be staying from now on. I nodded my head thanks and he said he'd come get me when
Torn Inside 2"Mommy!" I called as the rain fell heavily onto both mine and my mother's bodies. Tears were freely pouring out of my eyes and staining my pale skin. There was blood pooling out of my mom's stomach from a piece of the windshield that struck her as the other car did. "Mommy, please don't die!"
Her breathing was becoming more and more shallow by the second and her skin was getting colder and colder. The rain most certainly wasn't helping. "Roxas " she struggled to whisper. I clasped her freezing hand tightly in mine as she tried to raise it to my cheek.
"Yes, I'm here, Mommy!" I reminded her. "Mommy, you didn't have to come get me! If you just let me walk home, then you wouldn't have been hurt!"
Despite her current situation, Mommy still managed a small laugh. "You're so silly, my sweet Roxas I came because you would've gotten hurt if I let you walk I did it because I love you " she explained in her raspy voice. I cried harder, if that
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